Strength looks different on everyone. On me, strength is a smile while my heart is heavy. Strength is walking in the front door to my husband after a tearful drive home. Strength is talking about the future when inside I fear that we may not have one. Strength is waking up every day and going… Continue reading Little do you know
After my last post on here, so many things happened. One of which is that SHE came back. She professed to my husband that she wanted to run away with him. I found those messages. H said he was just trying to be friendly, because the way she was acting, he was worried that if… Continue reading He fucked up
Well, hubs is in the bathroom, so I thought I’d take a minute to quickly write down some thoughts before he comes out. Yes, I’m still hiding this blog from him because I don’t think he would love it that I’m continuing to write about the disaster of our life 1 year ago. But it… Continue reading A normal night
November is a difficult month for me. My initial finding of the affair happened on Oct. 30th and the final outing of everything, the explosion, happened a couple days after thanksgiving. This month sucks. But I’ve done SO well. I haven’t let it get to me too much until the last couple days. And I… Continue reading November
Apparently I get serious flare ups during my period. A couple days ago, the day before I started my period, I got really emotional. H had a late meeting that went a couple hours past the end of his shift and he got home roughly the time i got home from work. I felt anxious… Continue reading A blade of grass in Uzbekistan
The last few days I’ve been SO down. I’ve been extremely needy and feeling extremely sad. I DID just celebrate my beautiful daughters first birthday, so possibly that is causing this. I also started my period, which is a little off schedule because of my birth control, o maybe it’s just raging hormones? But also… … Continue reading Hormones or memories?
My husband and I have been living a long distance relationship. Not just now because he’s been gone for 2 weeks, but in the last year he has been gone a fair amount trying to finish this project for work. The place he is at has a lot of negative memories for me…. and I’ve… Continue reading Forever?