November is a difficult month for me. My initial finding of the affair happened on Oct. 30th and the final outing of everything, the explosion, happened a couple days after thanksgiving. This month sucks. But I’ve done SO well. I haven’t let it get to me too much until the last couple days. And I… Continue reading November
Apparently I get serious flare ups during my period. A couple days ago, the day before I started my period, I got really emotional. H had a late meeting that went a couple hours past the end of his shift and he got home roughly the time i got home from work. I felt anxious… Continue reading A blade of grass in Uzbekistan
The last few days I’ve been SO down. I’ve been extremely needy and feeling extremely sad. I DID just celebrate my beautiful daughters first birthday, so possibly that is causing this. I also started my period, which is a little off schedule because of my birth control, o maybe it’s just raging hormones? But also… … Continue reading Hormones or memories?
My husband and I have been living a long distance relationship. Not just now because he’s been gone for 2 weeks, but in the last year he has been gone a fair amount trying to finish this project for work. The place he is at has a lot of negative memories for me…. and I’ve… Continue reading Forever?
Today has been one of many challenging days for me since D-day. Baby just got back from a 5 day vacation with my mom. I wanted her to go, but it was hard. Holding her felt like I regained life, like I was holding the world in my arms. And really, I was. That baby… Continue reading Coming and going
I had a moment of panic today. I caught myself looking into my future. It was a very normal situation. Our daughter grown, H and I still together. I saw us in the entryway of our home. We were talking about me going to do something with our daughter, and him going out as well.… Continue reading What does moving on look like?
Well, day 3 of H being in what I’ll call “d day state”. The place he was when I officially found out. The place he was when I finally worked up the courage to virtually dig deep into his secret life. How did we get here? How did this happen to our relationship? How did… Continue reading What our future holds