My husband and I have been living a long distance relationship. Not just now because he’s been gone for 2 weeks, but in the last year he has been gone a fair amount trying to finish this project for work. The place he is at has a lot of negative memories for me…. and I’ve… Continue reading Forever?
Today has been one of many challenging days for me since D-day. Baby just got back from a 5 day vacation with my mom. I wanted her to go, but it was hard. Holding her felt like I regained life, like I was holding the world in my arms. And really, I was. That baby… Continue reading Coming and going
I had a moment of panic today. I caught myself looking into my future. It was a very normal situation. Our daughter grown, H and I still together. I saw us in the entryway of our home. We were talking about me going to do something with our daughter, and him going out as well.… Continue reading What does moving on look like?
Well, day 3 of H being in what I’ll call “d day state”. The place he was when I officially found out. The place he was when I finally worked up the courage to virtually dig deep into his secret life. How did we get here? How did this happen to our relationship? How did… Continue reading What our future holds
This morning was another morning I woke feeling low. I don’t remember having a dream, but I’m sure that is what caused it. For the last couple days H has been extremely affectionate, which is wonderful. We havent been intimate in several days though I have tried to innitiate. He has been extremely busy at… Continue reading The lows
A year ago that phrase would have made me think whoever wrote it was on drugs. How can you not be okay, but also be doing great? The answer? I have no idea. Sometimes I feel like I’m floating. I feel like my life is amazing and things are exactly how they… Continue reading I’m still not okay, but I’m doing great
This weekend H and I had a great time. We did a bunch of family stuff, and just really enjoyed ourselves. But, something happened. Small, insignificant talk turned into a HUGE trigger and I couldn’t hold it in. We were talking about god. And how some people use their faith as a crutch. They can… Continue reading He got it, for real